Stars: A moment of Reality

You ever have those experiences in life that will forever remain with you. It's as if you can go back to that moment and experience all of its senses and emotions, the people you were around and what they meant to you. One of those very memories existed on the grounds of Mont Lawn Camp. I remember asking the Lord days before this moment to give me opportunity to really have a great, impactful moment when dedicated women of God and I could fellowship. The night came. Two other friends and I somehow came together and found ourselves gazing at the stars on the black top. There was something so beautiful about that night as the stars seemed to gleam so much brighter and the Pennsylvania mountain air seemed so sweet, and the breeze felt so precious. It was as if we gazed at the stars as if we were having a conversation with it.
So much happened that evening. The entire night was eventful within itself. We got rained because we were the courageous three who decided to sleep outside the tent.To find shelter we went to the side room of the chapel at 4:00 am and fell asleep to a Land Before Time. Prior to that we were in the chapel praying for one another and affirming abilities and gifts we saw in one another. There was something special about that night, there was something special in that starry night. That night we sat outside looking at the stars just taking in our lives, our experiences and really just spending time with God. A year and months passed since then, but every time I see a starry night its like I go back to that very moment where I remember a moment of peace and serenity. I can remember that hopeful calm knowing that God was doing something great in our lives. Every time a beautiful starry night appears I am reminded that God is still making a way. I am reminded that there are people all over this country who love me and pray for me. I am reminded of two friends who pray for me.

At times I wish I had those starry nights where I could just think hopeful and be reminded that God is working everything out for me as I speak. Right now as I look at my life I would say that I am grateful for where God has called me. My current circumstances are not as ideal as I would like but I know God is working in my favor.
Still its a funny feeling. Maybe you can relate. You ever find yourself in God's waiting room. It's like going to an interview. You worked so hard and acquired the skills that you believe will help you get to the next pinnacle, to the next stage so to speak but you find yourself in the waiting wondering if you will move on or be summons to wait a little longer and work a little harder. Right now I am in my waiting room wondering what's the next level for me. At times I find myself discouraged wondering "when will that time come". Have I prepared myself well enough? Did I forget something? There are times in the day where my spirit grows anxious and I wonder if I made the right move in moving out here. But of course I know I did, because I followed God's call. But I have to remind myself not to get caught up, as it so easy to do. All I can say is that I am here Lord and I believe, I have hope, I know I am loved, I have peace, and I know that I know that I know you will work everything out for me. Amen