After several hours of going through the day I decided to get past my self and the pain in my adominals by kicking back a nice dosage of Advil and some water. And poof my attitude changed, what a magic trick. But the most important part is that I got beside myself. Today I was able to focus on something other than myself after realizing how much of an internal whiner I am. And suddenly, I just feel good. But not a good that can come from an Advil, Aleve, or any other type of drug. I just feel good. I guess simply because GOd's goodness is in me. That's the most pleasing feeling in the world.

I am pleased to see how much joy God has placed in my heart and given me so much security. He has given my passiona and desire. He has given me a pat on the rear end and pushed me along; given me a boost kind like Red Bull but without the wings. I am sincerely inspired by so much. I can't even described it. It's funny how my mind is finding the words to say, because I had absolutely no intention to talk about this. But right now I am beginning to take the proper steps to become a writer. I have officially written it as a part of my life goals and by gee golly gosh I am trying to make it happen. I've begun to go over my poems and writings again. I even designed a cover. Woop woop. I'm just inspired by life right now. By people, by friends and family, by my environment. For instance there is this woman who I pass nearly everyday. And she usually always finds something nice to say to me by giving me a compliment. The first time I walked pass her, I gave her eye contact and said hello. And she replied, "Hi you doing beautiful. Yes you are beautiful" Another time she called me a nubian queen. I was just blushing with joy. Just the other day I passed her and she asked for a dollar for food and ofcourse I gave it to her. The store was right there. Thinking about our acquiantance I am encouraged to know that we have so much to give and we can give so much in little ways. Sometimes we see value only monitarily. Sure I helped her out by giving her a dollar but she helped me by encouraging me those days I walked passed her after job hunting and feeling discouraged at times.

I am inspired by life and I am living. I am inspired by God and I'm living because of Him. I will close by putting an Amen stamp on that!